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Saturday 16 July 2022

Light Shines Upon Me




Standing tall, boulder-like shoulders 

Dynamic energy, a genuine smile

The love I find in his eyes

Light, for me to see


Oaken arms lift me in the air

Feet dangling, his exuberant joy

The love I find in his embrace

Light, for me to hold


Gentle spirit. warm as bathwater

A soft voice caresses my heart

The love I find in his words

Light, for me to hear


Cherishing my beloved mother

Entwined, their essence dancing

The love I find in his gifts

Light, for me to appreciate 


Capricious cracks in a flawless mirror

Joy to experience his imperfection

The love I find in his blemish

Light, for me to revere


How wonderful, this beautiful man

Admiration, jubilance, limitless thanks

The love I find in his impeccability

Light, for me to follow

Friday 1 July 2022

Mr. Dressup



Mr. Dressup

 
Butternut square, he often solicits

Condoms stain a beige cardigan

Sperm teases his, filthy, red chin

Mr. Dressup, our childhood hero


Tickle trunk empty, needles spent

Wry, scab encrusted, smirk begs

Knees bruised, a worker's injury

Mr. Dressup, our childhood hero


Casey pimped for a dime bag

Warm, liquid gold fills his veins

Passed out in piss and vomit

Mr. Dressup, our childhood hero


Finnegan runs point for a job

Coombs knifes the shopkeep

Red Bull and Viagra stolen

Mr. Dressup, our childhood hero 


Polluted, red, crotchless hotpants

Eating warm shit from the diaper

On the corner, on his knees

Mr. Dressup, our childhood hero


This poem was written as a literary juxtaposition. I wanted to take a beloved icon of my time to create a themed poem that totally destroys the beautiful vision of his fine work. In no way do I dislike the great work Mr. Dressup did. In fact, he was a favourite childhood icon for me growing up. This poem was fun to create. Sometimes in literature, it is fun to throw yucky poop on something beautiful.  

Wednesday 29 June 2022

Philo Sophia, of the infinite self...

Hail Sophia, Goddess of wisdom, bearer of light!

Ancient Greeks displayed an insatiable passion for wisdom, they devoured the intellect with a zeal unmatched in the annals of societal history. Greek inventiveness, coupled with a thirst for knowledge, gave rise to many advances responsible for enhancing the quality of modern life. Where would we be today without Greek contributions in mathematics, astrology, cartography, the arts, medicine, most importantly, philosophy?

Philo Sophia, directly translates into the love of wisdom, it stands as the hallmark of all that was ancient Greece. From a Greek perspective, nothing was deemed more righteous than the pursuit of wisdom. What treasures drove thousands of Greek philosophers to remain faithful to their Goddess?

First breath of Sophia's spirit can be discerned from noting the etymology of the word philosophy. Hundreds of years before Christ was to have walked the earth, people of knowledge known as "Sophists" traveled throughout Greece. Encouraged by their role as teachers, these sages of the day were most often found, orating, debating, instructing, and in most cases, arguing with love in their hearts, countless points of philosophical reason. Greeks acknowledged two types of sages:

Sophists (Professional Wisdoms) were sages which demanded payment for the knowledge they dispensed.

Contrarily, there were also "Philo Sophists" (Gift Wisdoms) which freely dispensed knowledge as a means of sharing their love of wisdom, freely, to all within the realm.


Looking a little deeper into the etymological rabbit hole, it is very interesting to also note the definition of Sophist is one who is associated with moral scepticism, as well, specious reasoning. Moreover, a Sophist was known to be a deceiver, a manipulator of logic. Whereas, more often than not, their fallacious arguments served a malignant cause.

The Greeks were wise to denote the specific role both money, and love, play in ones path toward wisdom. Coining Shakespeare; herein lies the rub. True love can seek only one path. Either we search for physical wealth, or we hunt down knowledge, we cannot attain both. Surely, we can enjoy a comfortable life, whilst gaining knowledge. However, in our heart, the deepest yearning must be one of discovery.

The prefix Philo translates into "the love of". Greek love of Sophia, or love of wisdom, represented for all citizenry, the key to true personal growth. No person instilled with wisdom, will determine value in money or fame. True wisdom transcends all egoic limitations. The Greeks understood, the discovery of ones true nature is the only valid expression of a bona-fide philosopher. Having discovered a taste for discerning truth beyond illusion, Greek philosophers were compelled to dedicate their lives to advanced learning. Carrying the definition of philosophy forward into the realm of modern online dictionaries, I have teased together, for your consideration, the following compilation.

Philosophy: The loving pursuit of wisdom, whereby, one affects an intellectual unbiased interrogation of reality whilst maintaining a code of moral self discipline.

Most people are convinced the domain of philosophy is restricted to the purview of great thinkers, the likes of Plato or Aristotle. We fail to acknowledge Plato, like all children, fumbled through youthful ignorance. Teenage uncertainty, masked by petulant bravado, must have plagued Aristotle much the same as it ravages all teens today. Einstein could not speak until he was four, nor read until he was seven, In fact, for the longest time, his parents thought he was mentally handicapped. Isaac Newton failed at school. Newton was so incompetent running the family farm, his father sent him off to Cambridge, just to get him out of the way.

Finally, Newton blossomed into one of the greatest scholars of his day. Socrates, regarded as an immoral corrupter of youth, was sentenced to death by his intellectual peers. Dostoevsky, Kierkegaard, Nietzsche and Sartre suffered greatly in their endeavor to philosophically enlighten us from a perspective of existentialism. Investigating the cross section of great philosophers, one discovers more than a fair share of misfits, miscreants and social bumblers. The point I am whittling away at is, deep within each of us, grains of philosophical sand are begging to form pearls of personal wisdom.

Further to this point, I advocate we are all philosophical beings by nature. Driving home the issue, I ask you to reach far back into your archives of childhood memories. Do you not see yourself as a young child intellectually interrogating reality? Can you see, within the heart of your child self, a loving pursuit of wisdom? Do you not live your life with a code of moral self discipline? Look into the eyes of any toddler, can you not see the philosopher within?

If we agree it is the curious nature of young children which lends them to philosophically devour their world, then we must ask ourselves, why does this aspect of our personality become dormant as we age? Unravelling the mystery of inquisitiveness lost, requires we look closely at the thoughts, feelings and emotions residing within our heart. Having affected, even briefly, an investigation into the core of our being, most will discover alien forces have supplanted their desire to seek wisdom. This indictment of our character, harsh as it may seem, does not infer adults are incapable of philosophical thought. Nor does it suggest alien beings have co opted our sense of intrigue. I carefully use the word alien to illustrate the desires we covet appear foreign, or at the very least, in contrast, to what one would consider the natural path of personal and societal evolution. If we agree alien indicates, not of the self, then we must also concur external programming at the hands of our educators, television, main stream media, religion, government, friends, parents, and family verily do represent the signposts we use to define our character and environment.

Where did that desire for knowledge go?

We have been trained to believe learning starts and ends with the education system. The farther we delve into post secondary education, the more assured we are of having completed our course of personal discovery. We assume maths, science, English, and a little geography is all that is needed to launch our adult lives. Having graduated with a knapsack full of near useless information, we feel confidence in knowing we have prepared well for our role in the work force. Into the breach we go. Alas, we discover added knowledge must be accrued to ensure we carve out a profitable niche in the consumerist marketplace. Having bevelled out a little piece of success, we arrive at the false understanding that we have learned enough to sustain our reality. Mainstream media teaches us material wealth is our raison d'etre, therefore, as soon as our checklist of success has been acquired, we assume we have fulfilled our need for wisdom. Fancy home, check, a new car, check, spouse and two point five children, got it. Finally, a loving dog in the kennel, while we sit in the holiday sun, aha, I have arrived! Having secured a foothold in society, we then occupy ourselves by seeking to increase our material status with upgrades ad infinitum.

Where, in this scenario of consumption, do we find a place in our heart for wisdom? What value is wisdom in a heart which has been trained to express an insatiable thirst for material gratification? Does this gluttony represent our true path, or is it an alien construct?

I charge you to remember, our table cannot feed both children, we must choose greed or wisdom! One child must sacrifice for another to grow, do you not agree, the child you feed is alien? Suckling the alien child starves us all. Avarice is a sin against self, family and society. Choosing to disregard philosophy will always lead to individual and societal chaos. Without knowledge, we cannot come to comprehend who we are, or why we exist. Philosophical pursuit is the only way forward, all other paths will lead to our inevitable destruction. I challenge you to look around your town, city, country, globe. Do you feel chaos is rampantly out of control? Philosophical enquiry can, and will, solve all the problems in our world. The only true course we can take is to demand an answer to three fundamental questions.


Define yourself?

Define your world?

Define your reason for being?





Can you answer the first question?

Most people, when asked to define the self, will start with a physical representation. By example, one would offer the bold statement, "I am a human man!". Pressed a little further to define self and our human man would likely resort to more detailed description, adding, "I am Christopher, I am 50 years old, I have grey hair." Pushed yet further to define the self, we discover discomfort settles over Christopher's demeanour.

"Haven't I said enough!".

Scratching his head, he clutches at straws by resorting to banal and ridiculous accreditation's, "I am a salesman, I am a Canadian!" In frustration he states. "What more is there?"

I am not concerned with what you look like, your profession, sex, colour or race. Thus far, the only statement of any merit is that you are a human man. Christopher, the question we need to answer is, what is a human? Please define yourself?

This is where the rubber hits the road, either Christopher will be left dumbfounded, or he will reach for high school science. "I am primarily carbon and water, however, I also represent, ad minutia, a bevy of many different ingredients, all found on periodic table, so there!"

I appreciate your biological constituents Christopher, however, if we look at your physique with physics in mind we can just as easily confirm, your physical representation, as Einstein would so eloquently convey, is an illusion. If you maintain your physical description is the basis of defining yourself Christopher, then, reason would suggest, you define the self as an illusion. Are you an illusion Christopher? If we agree you cannot pin your identity on a physical hook, then, I must ask you again, please define yourself?

Don't feel frustrated by the inability to hit the bulls eye. Being able to answer a question is not nearly as important as understanding the value in knowing the question must be asked. Dip your mind into the realm of philosophical pursuit, you will always find treasure. By way of example, accurately defining the self, takes us down paths which lead beyond the illusion of physicality. Whence we follow our intrigue, we discover the physical self, once considered the be all and end all of life, is merely a signature of energy which has no beginning nor end. Greek philosophers understood the path defining the self must invariably lead the adherent from insanity to sanity.




After all, what is insanity, if it not the inability to perceive reality?

Choosing to define ourselves from a philosophical perspective, we discover our true identity is consciousness. Consciousness is not set in time or space, it is an eternal expression. Consciousness has no boundaries, it is limitless, omnipotent and omnipresent. Nothing exists in the absence of consciousness, therefore, you are the totality of all manifest reality. You are the chair you sit on, the car you drive. You are the moon and the entirety of all creation, you are me. Most people would call you insane if you tried to suggest they are a tree, they would be mortified if you suggested they are a piece of shit.

They would be wrong! Of course you are a piece of shit, as well you are a rose, you are the sunset we all adore. You are the light many call God.

From this vista of sanity, you will discover your world is commanded by the insane. Unfortunately, when you do discover sanity, you find yourself alone, abandoned, trapped in a societal nightmare. Within this ghoulish creation of insanity, you will feel compelled to lovingly guide the mind programmed masses toward paths beyond the corruption of illusion, past the chains of avarice. Standing on your self created rickety dais, you will urge those within earshot to stop, look within, listen to their heart.

What lessons do we learn when we discover the true self?

I say unto you all. Whence you have touched your heart, you will find a brother in every star, a sister in every blade of grass, a mother in the earth, a father in the sun. You will reach out to all aspects of this physical reality, knowing, this is who you are. You will demand an elimination of all money, for you will realise money is an abusive tool, capable of only serving chaos. You will insist all brethren be cared for, fed, housed and loved, there can be no exception. You will eliminate the need to judge yourself, others, and your world. You will understand the paradigm of duality and know that all expressions are divine. You will have discovered darkness is the provocateur of light, whereas, all is light, all is love. You will have evolved your spirit, you will have become a Socratic student, fully knowing and accepting that you know nothing. Can we afford to deny our true nature for much longer? What happens to a society who cannot forge a path to its true centre?




Observe the relationship between our lack of knowledge and the maya expressed in our reality. Many centuries have passed since the great Alexandria library was rendered to ashes. The charring of Sophia's physical legacy merely represented the opening salvo of countless abuses against Greek wisdom. Unquestionably, Greek society has turned it's back on the Goddess Sophia. Even if the desire were present, most Greeks are too preoccupied with keeping a roof over their head to find time for luxuriating in philosophical debate. The spirit of Sophia has been steadily bred out of Greek society. Steal wisdom from a society and we release it's counterpart expression, which, in this reality, is represented by an unabated malignancy of consumerism.

Avarice of greedy fat little bankers have eviscerated Sophia. Holding our hands to our faces, we behold, with horror, the once great Sophia, helpless, drained of life, barely breathing. She is held captive in a pit of inequity that we must all accept culpability in creating! Patrons of Goddess Sophia are difficult to find in today's Greece. The love of wisdom has been relegated to the backseat of a bus driven by the urgency to survive.

How apropos it is that the fuse presently igniting the keg of global economic collapse has been lit in Greece. Fractal imagery presents to us an iconic lesson as we observe, on this day, the nation which insisted upon a philosophical foundation, should fall to it's age old nemesis as represented by the insatiable greed of ignorant men. Suicide in Greece is rampant! The average citizen cannot envision a future for themselves, their children, or their nation. The exodus has begun. However, countries like England are already pushing back. We don't want your kind here, they ardently state! Stay where you are, we are not your brethren!

Recoil as they might, soon, English residents, as well as the rest of Europeans, will experience first hand the connection between empty bellies and emigration. Bitter irony suggests my Greek brothers and sisters will never find salvation until they rekindle the damaged relationship with their Goddess Sophia. The love of Sophia was, is, and always will be, the only salvation for Greece. Point in fact, none of us are exempt, Sophia is the only ray of hope left to all humanity! What does philosophy have to do with the salvation of mankind?

Empty your pockets, fill your hearts, tell me Sophia is your Goddess.

In Lak'ech, dearest brethren, prosper in truth live with love... Philo Sophia...

Tuesday 28 June 2022

Ego... The Beast Within Our Minds...

Ego, is an enigma whose philosophical expanse proves one of the most challenging subjects for budding illuminators to effectively sort through. When tackling this topic, the adherent will discover the vast majority of Ego-related literature, as provided by the world of psychology, sociology and new-age funkiness, does little to clear muddy waters. Having sifted through many sources; there are a few valuable references I choose to hang my hat upon, these being; the teachings of Don Juan Matus, Gnostic texts, the philosophy of the ancient Greeks, and the meanderings of a few modern philosophers like Bill Hicks or Timothy Freke, who slightly touch upon the caustic nature of Ego. From the big screen; we can investigate Guy Ritchie's classic movie "Revolver" whereby a fantastic job of illustrating ego at play was constructed. Because Ego plays an all-encompassing role in our lives, I point to these few works as a fantastic place to establish a foothold into the unruly subject of Ego. You may ask; what is the benefit of chasing this old Tiger? Consider this simple observation; in the forest of consciousness, Ego is, by far, the most elusive and dangerous of beasts.

What dangers do we speak of?


Ego appears to us as a tangible construct responsible for framing the human experience in such a way that we are encouraged to adopt a belief structure of separation, physicality, death, and the little "I". Ego, by confounding our sense of reality and reason, supports the experience of a material world which, in turn, keeps humanity from discovering our true DivineSelf nature as the ultimate, indivisible, eternal, singularity. The experience of time and space are manipulated by Ego, in so much as the focus of humanity most often is unwittingly funnelled into the past or future whilst forsaking the glory of the now moment. We find Ego also serves as the underlying current responsible for transporting humanity into the domain of fear, expectation, hope, and despair. The ego prevents us from breaking through the many barriers of illusion, it hobbles our sense of possibility. Moreover, in the lives of all, the ego acts as the primary catalyst of chaos.

What is the origin of the Ego?


This qualifying question of Ego's origin opens for me a Pandora's box of possibility, of which, I may never close. However difficult the query, there are a few interesting suppositions that, possibly, might shed some light on the topic. The Gnostics believed there exist two primary forces guiding consciousness expression; the first being the Goddess Sophia, creator of our universe. Aided by her subservient Goddesses and Gods, Sophia is responsible for guiding humanity toward light and love. The Gnostics believed the unadulterated path of humanity is to express our GodSelf nature. Adherents of the Gnostic philosophy, like us today, needed to explain why chaos seems to represent such a large portion of the human experience. Their conclusion was to point toward the antithesis of Sophia, which they suggested was represented by a force called the "Archons." Their belief structure argued that the Archonic expression represented a ubiquitous force of nature responsible for clouding the collective mind of humanity, in so much as we are unable to identify with our true nature as Sophia's GodSelf progeny. Gnostic texts paint a compelling picture of good and evil constantly at odds in a race to gain the seat of consciousness.

Closer reflection of Gnostic assertions leaves me with the realisation that the force of Sophia represents the greater GodSelf "I", while the Archons are akin to what we would consider the Ego, or the small "I". Gnostic truth, in my opinion, maintains that the Archons, like everything in our universe, originates from the Sophia creation. Archonic service to Sophia enables humanity the ability to experience duality so that we may observe choice as the fundamental core of how we manifest consciousness in the material world. Investigation into their philosophy could lead one to assume Ego, at the very least, represents the antithesis of love. If we are to accept the Gnostic rendition of humanity being subjected to ethereal benefactors, in addition to, nefarious assailants, then, we certainly will ascribe Archons the role of God busters. Ego's part in the cosmic dance is somewhat easier to pin down than its origin. However, if the Gnostics were right, then we can believe the presence of Ego to be an indivisible part of consciousness, eternal in nature, very much a function of our 'perceived' reality.

Much like the Gnostic assessment, we find Don Juan Matus expressed Ego in terms of a separate being responsible for twisting the way humanity sees consciousness unfold. Matus used the term "Fliers" to describe what one would assume is the antithesis of our true GodSelf nature. Below is a quote from Don Juan Matus clearly describing, to his protege, the predatory nature of the Fliers.  

I want to appeal to your analytical mind. Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behaviour. Sorcerers believe that the predators have given us our systems of beliefs, our ideas of good and evil, and our social mores. They are the ones who set up our hopes expectations and dreams of success or failure. They have given us covetousness, greed, and cowardice. It is the predators who make us complacent, routinary, and egomaniacal."

"In order to keep us obedient and meek and weak, the predators engaged themselves in a stupendous manoeuvre; stupendous, of course, from the point of view of a fighting strategist. A horrendous manoeuvre from the point of view of those who suffer it. They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind. The predators’ mind is baroque, contradictory, morose, filled with the fear of being discovered any minute now."


Matus could not be more precise in his description as he offers Carlos Castaneda a purview into the alternate or Egoic Self. Like the Gnostics, Matus unequivocally defines the Fliers as separate beings, acting as infiltrators, manipulators, and deceivers of the higher human expression. Don Juan leaves little doubt as to the role Fliers play in striking down any attempt a sorcerer's adherent would make toward exposing their domain or understanding their modus operandi.

Don Juan emphatically instructs Castaneda that, of all his teachings, nothing is more important to the man of knowledge than the subject of Fliers. 

Speaking about the origin of the Fliers, Don Juan suggests they have always been part of the greater landscape of humanity. Furthermore, Don Juan indicates the tapestry of illusion, as conveyed by Archons, represents an inescapable function of consciousness. Matus speaks of seeing the Flier overtake an infant child, his visions reflecting upon the disquiet of knowing the child's true sense of reality has been hijacked, never to be freed unless the child learns the sorcerer's way of knowledge.  

To me; the most exciting part of Matus's revelations defines exactly how the Archonic parasitic presence dominates the mind of all humans. The aforementioned quote represents only a small slice of what Matus offers as a clear, unequivocal, peek into the predatory mind which we all unwittingly use to filter our reality. The best way I could illustrate the gist of the Matus revelations is to suggest you acknowledge that all you see, think, and feel, is filtered through the Archon mind. What you describe as your mind, your experiences, your thoughts, feelings, and emotions, are not your own. You only think they are! Paint a composite of the "I" you see in the mirror, you will be directing attention to your Archon.

You think this Archon is you, but it is not!

By the example of the Matus assertions, readers of the "Yaqui Way of Knowledge" discover many exciting revelations as the author, Castaneda, moves beyond the unveiling of his own personal curtain of Archonic deceit. Under the tutelage of Matus; Castaneda discovers a strikingly different reality, one which very few people are privileged to entertain. Castaneda soon learns the natural laws of the universe no longer apply. Space, time, and physicality take on new meanings. Like Alice in Wonderland; all is not as one would expect in this menagerie of spiritual bliss.

Doors open to expose newfound powers of perception, and all life unifies as one for Castaneda. The wolf, coyote, and eagle become his true brethren as he imbibes their spirit running through canyons, and soaring high above the desert below. Miracles of the GodSelf bring to light bizarre abilities Castaneda never knew existed. Casteneda learns how to be in two places at once, to travel thousands of kilometres in seconds, and to discover full harmony with all living beings. Take heed to the lessons of Matus, you too will come to accept that the essence of your persona is, a mirror of lies, a betrayal of your true nature. More to the point, what you glean as the 'real' you is in fact a very pale reflection of your potential as a God-released being.


Against the Grain:

Although both the Gnostic texts and the great don Juan seem to agree that Ego represents an actual entity responsible for separating humanity from knowing its proper role as a GodSelf singularity, I find myself both agreeing and disagreeing with their analysis.

I agree ego prevents humans from knowing their true identity. However, I beg to differ when we attempt to establish Ego as a physical entity existing separate from the GodSelf. There are a few reasons to explain my conviction.

Firstly; most importantly, the crux of my own philosophy balances on the theory all manifest reality is a singularity. Therefore, nothing whatsoever can exist separate from unity consciousness. Although the Gnostic definition of the Archon presence as a function of Sophia's divine plan tends to agree with this theory, Matus, it would appear to suggest otherwise.

Secondly; it stands to reason that if a Gnostic teacher, or in this case, don Juan Matus, wishes to identify a certain facet of consciousness, then this aspect must be separated for identification. Matus, like many sorcerers and philosophers, exposes the mechanics of our persona as a way to define, for the benefit of all, how Ego manifests control. Logic would suggest, the most effective way to qualify Ego would be to expose it as existing separate from the greater whole. If this is the case, possibly Matus and my own theories, although appearing separate, are in accord.

Thirdly; our reality expresses itself as a duality. Therefore, inherent in consciousness, we must be able to discover an opposing force to GodSelf realisation. Ego, I believe, is that force. In my humble opinion, Ego is a natural, and essential, part of consciousness. The ego represents an integral aspect of human evolution. Therefore, it must be considered a unified partner in the reality experience. Similes and metaphors are often needed to assist in constructing a complete picture of esoteric reality. I believe don Juan and the Gnostics used Fliers and Archons as a viable concrete path toward expressing Ego in terms spiritual initiates could reflect upon, defend against, then gain knowledge from.

Be it separate from the self, or part of the greater whole, we can all agree on one truth, Ego dominates our expression of reality, Ego manifests fear, hope, desire, lust, it promulgates greed, envy and dovetails with spirit in the, most beautiful, dance of consciousness. Ego truly represents all of the base emotions we experience daily, yet, its presence is understandable, necessary to drive the vehicle of choice.

Ego in Our World:


However we align with his views, don Juan Matus has succinctly and eloquently defined the role of Ego. Simply stated, we are God, a singular, eternal expression of love. However, the role of Ego is to trick us into believing ourselves to be fleshy mortals. Cohabiting in the material world, fighting for survival, while racing against an inevitable expiry date, we believe our existence is limited. In light of the chaos we experience, who could deny consciousness is caught in the web of Ego's illusion. Don Juan was a phenomenal sorcerer, just from one small excerpt of his teachings we can glean a wealth of knowledge about Ego. Let us take a closer look at what he has to say.

"I want to appeal to your analytical mind. Think for a moment, and tell me how you would explain the contradiction between the intelligence of man the engineer and the stupidity of his systems of beliefs, or the stupidity of his contradictory behavior."

How do we account for the contradiction of man's intelligence, juxtaposed, to the collective behaviour of mankind? We know the nature of the atom, over 100 years past scientists, using the double-slit experiment, exposed the truth of our reality. Einstein clearly stated, "Reality is merely an illusion, albeit a very persistent one". Knowing the material world is illusory should have completely changed our way of life, it should have created a flood of scientific truth all pointing directly at the GodSelf and unity consciousness.

What happened?

Over millennia, countless philosophers, sorcerers, and spiritual practitioners have illuminated a clear path for all of us to follow. Do we heed their wisdom? No, we instead choose to fumble along in the darkness, absolutely refusing to open our eyes. We consider ourselves an intelligent race. Yet, we somehow deem it proper to accept over one billion of our brethren will starve to death, and over 3 billion will subsist on less than three dollars per day. We are the only species that act as cancer upon the planet. Is it not odd that we seem oblivious to this destructive path? Our consumptive insanity is ubiquitous throughout all facets of reality. The land, water, air, plants, animals, even our brethren, all succumb to the destruction of Homo Sapiens. Ponder seriously some of the following queries.

Does this Archonic reality represent the true nature of humanity, or, is there something more we can aspire to? Is there some great power we have yet to consider or develop?


There seems no end to the stupidity of human expression. No foreseeable abatement to the destruction of our world. Moreover, no semblance to our obviously true GodSelf nature as conduits of unconditional love. Why is this the chaotic reality we choose?


Contradictions in human expression abound. Yet, we seem incapable of processing the real reality hidden beneath this contagious exterior. I ask you, is it not be reasonable to assume scientific knowledge alone should have directed us toward love and unity consciousness?


Does it make sense that we all envision a more compassionate world? However, somehow, our collective choices continually take us in a completely different direction.


Why do you think we all want love but find it almost impossible to grasp?


There is an elephant in the room, ironically, no one seems capable of acknowledging its presence. Imagine, your neighbour is a murdering fool who destroys everything he touches. This neighbour visits your home, steals the silverware, rapes your daughter, stabs your wife, then walks out the door after lighting the curtains on fire. Responding to the mayhem, do you invite him over for dinner the very next week, or, do you immediately put a stop to the chaos, correct the damage, then take care of your family? I concede to you, this scenario seems ridiculous on a personal scale. Yet, globally, you must realise, week after week, we are choosing to have the neighbour over for dinner?

Matus urges us to remember Ego is not just the little voice in our head, it represents much more than a few untoward thoughts.




  • We fail to see the Godself reality hidden behind the physical plane of Ego. Against the teachings of modern-day science, we trust our world is solid, separate, molecular. Egoic expression traps us in a physical shell, ego leaves us shackled to a very limited reality. In the absence of Ego, we would be free to experience any reality we wish. How would you like to experience the world through the eyes of an eagle, a wolf, cat, or bask in the lifeblood of a large oak tree?

  • Ego causes us to see all manifest reality as separate little bits and pieces. The illusion of separation makes it impossible for us to comprehend that our brethren are truly not separate from ourselves. Imagine how the world would be a completely different experience if we all understood the true nature of unity consciousness.

  • Humanity is confused about time. Ego has us believe past, present and future are all different aspects of beingness, when in fact, time, like consciousness itself, is a singularity. Imagine how much more beautiful our world would be if we could comprehend the immortal nature of our true selves.

  • What if we lived in a world no longer limited by the sense of a singular body? We are omnipresent GodSelf beings. We are more than capable of being in many places at once. Time and space, as fed to us by Ego, give us the impression of solidity, this is not our true nature.

  • We call ourselves humans. Yet, the truth of the matter is, we are Gods. This little "I" syndrome, presented to us by Ego, destroys our ability to love without condition. Hobbled like a prize pony, we know not of the sensibility of sharing and caring for all our brethren. Know thyself! There is no other more beautiful, more sacred, more deserving of love, than you!

  • Look out the window of your world. Humanity is driven by fear. Ego is the derivative of all fear. Move away from the illusions created by Ego, you will determine fear has been dispatched in favour of unconditional love. How would your world change if love became the only basis for all your decisions? 

  • Judgment is contagious in our world. Imagine, if we could all jettison the need to weigh good against bad. Ego prevents us from knowing that the brother we hate, is none other than a reflection of ourselves.

  • Ego coops the unified GodSelf mind, then replaces it with the false self of Ego. However, Ego, like all visitors, can be asked to leave. We are so confused into believing in the little "I", we never touch the true self, never know the glory of our primary identity. Remember what Matus said; "They gave us their mind! Do you hear me? The predators give us their mind, which becomes our mind."

  • Death, need, desire, greed, all rule human expression. What if we could transcend these concepts? What if we knew ourselves to be eternal, omnipotent, omnipresent, unified as a singular beingness that chooses to only embrace love? What if we knew our enemies as yet another reflection of God, another reflection of our own self. 

Beyond The Beast:


We need not be handcuffed to the realm of Ego. Collectively, we can transition beyond Ego. The path toward sanity is easier than one might imagine. Scientific footholds can be learned, knowledge can be accrued, reason can be applied, logic can be embraced. However, is this enough? To answer this most important question, I can offer two points of view; the master sorcerer Matus and yours truly.

Don Juan Matus proved the Ego can be harnessed, tamed, and ridden. His "Yaqui Way Of Life" illustrates the results that can be realized if one is truly dedicated to the path of what he called "The Way of the Warrior". Matus shows us the beauty of a sorcerer's world. Castaneda's books unequivocally illustrate that don Juan Matus lived his life under the rules and actions of an impeccable man. Reading the Castaneda series leaves you breathless, tearful. Most importantly, it emboldens you with love. Therefore, if it is your desire to know Ego, I suggest you start with the gift of Matus's love, then, set your sights upon being a spiritual warrior, a person of impeccable behaviour.

Exposing my personal battle with the beast is guaranteed to benefit you much less than the teachings of don Juan. Nonetheless, it is certainly worthy of mention, as my path may be more akin to what you are facing this day.

For most of my life; I never knew what Ego was all about, never even knew of its existence. The movie Revolver does a great job of presenting Ego, especially as it places, front and center, the need to know thy enemy. We see the main character being released from his inner turmoil the minute he becomes capable of identifying his EgoSelf.

Like the fictional character in Revolver, ignorance of my EgoSelf, left me defenseless to combat the awful side effects of Ego's attacks. How could I know there was a demon lurking within my mind? The beast just had his way with me! It was my master! The little monkey coloured my world with fear, all the while, stripping love from every corner of my reality. By the time I was twenty, I knew love was the missing ingredient in my life. Life for me was horrible. Without the ability to lovingly connect with others, I felt abandoned, cold, homeless. To overcome this loss, I set my sights on learning what love was. Moreover, how was it maintained, why it was so inexplicably elusive. Looking for a definition of love, I found myself traipsing across hills and dales of spiritual wonderment. Puzzling together impressions of love, inevitably, pushed me in the direction of Love's antithesis, which, as I have been intoning in this essay, is Ego.

From my humble, yet personally enlightening, experience, I advocate your first step in fighting the beast is to know your enemy. We can only defeat the things we know. Ignorance breeds fear, fear paralyses all action. The moment you accept within your heart that there does lie a beast, this is the turning point where you finally begin the path toward emancipation from its grasp. Having accepted the truth of your reality, you then must reach for all the information which may shed further light on how your inner demon dominates your reality. The more you know of this enemy, the better armed you will be to counter his threat or even defeat him in battle.

Once you have learned enough to wage war on the beast, then you must establish a game plan for combating the endless attacks on your psyche. Personal experience has afforded me a small toolbox of fixes for battling Ego. Knowledge truly is power, I would advise you to never stop searching for more information on how Ego works. Truly, you will never know too much about Ego. Another wonderful tool I found was my observer self. If I consider there are three voices in my head, I would call these voices, my EgoSelf, GodSelf, and ObserverSelf. All three are very real; all three perform a function in my personal dance of consciousness.

Ego runs the show by taking up most of my daily thoughts. I allow it to dominate the expression of my reality, as a result it does. Waking up in the morning, I am transfixed by the world of Ego, I see physicality, separation, need, and the clock ticking on the wall.

My GodSelf is a powerful benefactor, it clears the darkness. Whereby, it allows me to expand my world, beckons me to bask in my true identity by embracing unconditional love in lieu of the fear peddled by its nemesis, Ego. The problem with my GodSelf is that I rarely ask it to take over control of the reality that reigns. Due to its cameo appearance in my life, my Godself fulfills the role of stabilizer, akin to an emergency relief pitcher, trying to save the day by striking out Ego's heavy bat. However minimal the appearance of my GodSelf may be, it plays a critical role in allowing me to capture, embrace, and covet my true identity as a loving being who chooses to unconditionally accept all manifest reality. Reflecting upon an old saying, I would not trade all the tea in China for the loss of knowing that my GodSelf reality exists.

The third player in my mind is the ObserverSelf. The Observer is my watchdog, it needs to be fed regularly. I feed my Observer by asking it to work. Its duty is simple, it must constantly be in contact with my conscious higher self so that it can act as a filter sorting out the constant horriblising Ego promulgates in my mind.

I always deal with mental chatter from Ego. My observer is like the alarm bell that rings when carbon monoxide is detected in a building. Without that vigilant alarm, I would perish to the wiles of an unseen killer. When Ego pushes me around, my Observer is responsible for making sure that, before the smell reaches my nose, I am already aware that the shit has hit the fan.

For example, if I find myself in a funk, all worked up over how I am going to pay the bills or feed my family when I have just lost my job. Ego will pound at my head and heart making me feel powerless, desperate, needy. This is not just me tearing at an old scab, this is my EgoSelf abusing the privileges I have afforded it. The Observer is vigilant, he knows this is an attack of Ego, he acts at my behest acting as a beacon, steering me toward the safe haven of my GodSelf spirit. My Observers steadfast presence, once again, allows me the chance to catch a breath so that I can transcend the maya presented by Ego.

For those of you who have never established an ObserverSelf as part of your working psyche, it must be nigh on impossible to envision the benefits gained by its presence. From my perspective, I cannot grasp how I could have ever managed Ego without my trusty ObserverSelf ally.


Possibly, the greatest ally in my struggles against Ego, is the knowledge that there does exist another GodSelf reality.

Moreover, that I can choose to dwell in whichever house I desire. I have known what life is like when I allow EgoSelf to run amok, unabated. It is not a pretty sight. Conversely, I know how life can be expressed when seen through the eyes of my GodSelf. The brilliant, unabated, bliss of the GodSelf is truly inexpressible. If nothing else has been gained, these gifts of experiencing the two contrasting realities have taught me that I can exercise choice.

Prior to knowing Ego, I was a victim to its contrivances. I was lost, blind, hopelessly defeated by its presence. Identifying the beast represents a single aspect of fighting the battle. One needs the knowledge of the GodSelf to understand the contrast. For, without that knowledge, one cannot entertain the alternative. We have been mentally programmed by society to believe in lies. Our societal masters know this truth will emancipate the human race, it will free us from the bonds of ritualistic debt slavery. The powers that be have deliberately constructed a world of fear, competition, consumerism, and ignorance. They are counting on distractions, lethargy, and ignorance to keep us in check. They think we will fold under the weight of oppression. This is not our destiny. We are more, we are GodSelf beings. Knowledge has shed light on my true beingness, it has afforded me the most valuable of all gifts, the gift of choice.

Grace, serenity, and courage are also tools that cannot be under-emphasized.

Grace is needed to allow me to accept that, although I have been duped by corporate masters who have conspired to enslave humanity, I cannot debase myself with thoughts of anger, retribution, or hate. I have also needed a heaping helping of grace to accept my faults. Without grace, I would never be able to come to terms with the obvious reality that Ego, is still the prime driver of my present-day expression of reality.

I am no don Juan Matus, never will be. However, this is not important. What matters is that I try my best each day, then, accept the results, love, and cherish the Self. My goal is to live the life of an impeccable man! This is my destiny as I have chosen to be a spiritual warrior. I have discovered the battle will never end. My EgoSelf is a great part of who I am today. Therefore, it is reasonable to assume, EgoSelf will be a lifelong partner. Ego is nothing to be ashamed of. Ego is my teacher, it constantly demands I better myself. By presenting maya, ego asks me to reach for greater realms of reality, pursue, without pause, a path toward unconditional love.

Serenity, like all aspects of emotion, is a choice. Ego will always create strife, it is up to me, and my ObserverSelf, to always seek balance, to observe, then choose my true nature. Serenity will enable my ability to embrace all actions which promote love. There must be a place of peace within the self. I have found the thoughts of a running river most quickly allow me to balance. For you, there may be another source of serenity. Whatever, or wherever, it is, as spiritual warriors, we need respite from the chaos.

Courage is another tool in the box of sanity. Not just ordinary courage. I have found the courage of a lion is essential for any chance at embracing unconditional love. EgoSelf heaps fear into my psyche daily, hourly, hell every minute is not an exaggeration. It takes an inordinate amount of courage to continue to love myself, my friends, acquaintances, and especially my enemies. EgoSelf sets me up for failure on a daily basis. I fall, get up, then dust myself off, Over and over, I reach for a well of courage that insists I stand again to rebuff its accusations. EgoSelf will never stop visiting my home, I must have the courage to steadfastly resist its directives.


The House You Build: 


There are two homes that I can create for myself and family. The EgoSelf wishes for me to live in a house built of fear. Society, believe it or not, also wants me to live in this same seedy domain.

Point of fact, I do live in a hovel. My home is littered with the decaying matter of slain beasts. I struggle to beat down all comers, to conquer my fear. All in favour of embracing, love, unconditionally.



Does this make me less of a beautiful person?

Does this mean that my true GodSelf reality is unattainable?

The answer to these questions depends on which one you ask. My EgoSelf would complacently suggest.

Don't worry amigo, all is in hand, you will never dwell in peaceful love, it's just not meant to be. 

My GodSelf knows only unconditional love; therefore it would state the obvious.

Damn idiot all is love, stop searching, stop judging, just BE what you are, be love.

My ObserverSelf would flatly state.

Dude, I am overworked and underpaid here. Go ask your GodSelf, he has nothing better to do than slap some sense into your silly head.

This I have learned. Every moment of the day, thoughts run through my mind. Each thought will be infused with emotions and feelings which will directly impact my experience of reality. Each thought might be best described as a physical brick in the construct of my world. My Observer is needed to filter my thoughts so that I can be aware of what is running through the mill.

Each thought based in fear will certainly make grander the mansion EgoSelf has created.

Each thought based in unconditional love will allow me to construct a house build on the tenets of GodSelf love.

Ask anyone what house they wish to live in! To a person, they will choose love. You know what we all want. Now, look around. How many homes of love do you see?

The house of love will never be a mansion, unless, I deliberately choose to manufacture bricks of love. My most popular choice, if I am honest, is to accept that I presently construct bricks of fear. Without first admitting the error of my ways, I will never seed the path of change in my crazy world. I accept my faults, I love myself, then rededicate all efforts to the task at hand. One brick at a time, I choose to build love. Every single step toward unconditional love, is a giant leap for mankind. It matters not how many steps I take in my life. What is important, is that I choose a direction, then remain relentless in choosing love. This, my dear friends, is what it means to be a man of honour, compassion, and love. The great don Juan Matus would then refer to me as, a man of impeccability.

In Lak'ech, dearest brethren, prosper with knowledge... live with love...

Monday 14 February 2022

Moments We Share


    



Moments We Share


Hours slip by, the phone finally rings

Your soft voice, music to my ears

The communion of our loving spirit

Anticipation


Forest walks, serenely holding hands

Playful banter, coastal treasures shared

The nature of our loving spirit

Gratitude


Games played, teasing competition

Victory dances, poking at fun

The joviality of our loving spirit

Excitement


Sweet kisses, warm embraces

Sharing breath, touch, emotions

The tenderness of our loving spirit

Affection


Ocean strolls, seashells collected

Rocks stretch my cotton pockets

The playfulness of our loving spirit

Gaiety


Sexual abandon, stimulating pleasures

Desire intimately expressed with joy

The passion of our loving spirit

Sizzling